Another Chapter Has End

Life is mysterious. Yes, I know i had say this few times and my friend start thinking i was some kind of psychic for saying this all the time. But that thing had really happen on me many times.

First, it begun when i had the opportunity to comeback to my internship company, Infomedia Nusantara, i admit, i wasn't really excited at first because i thought i would like to start my carrier as a marketing staff or something like that. Yeah that time i had many mixed feelings inside my heart but rather than thankful i was worried, scared and not confident.

Then i start spent my days, minute to minutes, every second and surprisingly i din't feel any burden there, i didn't feel bored or feeling like i was trapped. I enjoy my time there, so much.

Another fact that makes me really thankful now, that i had the chance to work there even only for two months, is that i learn, many many many things there. i realize that i really have my heart into social media and it's whole world. My boss even teach and share me so many things that i knew i wasn't gonna get it somewhere else. every single time i spent there was just priceless.

So you might gonna ask, why am i leaving that company? I am obsessed. yes, not by having bigger materials or pride, i am obsessed to learn more on the subjects i have learned for 4 years, Marketing. So me leaving to my new company is not because i'm not happy with my previous company, no it's just because i know, it's too early for me to be on a comfort zone. i can't landed now, i need to travel more to get many experience.

But i know now,you may predict the future, but it could turn out to be differently amd surprisingly far away from what we have imagined.

I will never forget how grateful i am having the experience in Infomedia and even though i may have left now, Infomedia will be remain as one of a place that build me into someone i will be in the future.

thank you thank you and thank you!

My Best Friend Wedding

Last sunday I went to Cipanas, Puncak where my friend put on her wedding dress and married.

I was so excited as if we had planned the whole thing months ago, even Icha, the one who get married, had sent the clothes for us to wear from weeks before the day. We had this blue 'kebaya' which fits the whole wedding theme. I went to puncak early at 6AM with Nur and Sindy, WHICH i hadn't met for a long time. So we filled the whole trip by told our life story or what happened with us, etc.

When we crossed puncak and Bumi Aki, we remember those days when we still in Senior High and use to go to Bumi Aki many times just to get free lunch from icha's restaurant.

As we arrive to Hotel Cianjur and met some of my friends who had stayed from the day before, we begun the hectic by putting make up, try the clothes, yelled at each other and stuff.

it felt just like yesterday, even though we haven't met for years but it felt just the same as those old days when we hang around with 'putih abu-abu-' uniform. again, my theory (which i had posted here) proof. everything will remain the same if both parties have the commitment to stay on the friendship like it always does.

As for the wedding, i have never seen icha, anisha desiliana putri, that happy. her smile ain't go nowhere. She stand there like the most beautiful grown up women that i used to see as a 'bocah ingusan' with glasses run and laugh everywhere.

She had found her love and i never really thought she will be the first one but yes, still, i know someday a lucky guy will have her heart.

Thank God even though that week was such a mess but i still could attend her wedding. i need to come. i need to know that the memories i had of old days will not just disappeared. Some things in this world don't have to be gone, lost, it may just change into different shape. JUst enjoy :)

Cher saved my life

So have you ever have the time, even once in your life when you feel wasted? Feel such a trash, useless and wondering why can’t you be as good as anybody else.

Well even though I try to be a positive person for most of the time, still I have faced some time I feel that way. Recently I felt so down, felt like I am one of the lowest persons among people I know. I disappointed much and get really tired pretending to be okay.

I felt that even though I’ve tried hard, things just don’t go on my way. So I start feeling this ‘galau’ (no, I’m not gonna translate that word in English, it’s too original) for days. I listened to various songs, and bump up into one of the most motivational songs I’ve heard in my life. It was a song by Cher named “You Haven’t Seen the Last of Me”.

I had fallen for that song since I listen and watch it in one of Bourlesque scenes. I myself am a big fan of that movie, considering how I underestimate the picking of Christina Aguilera as the main actress. So Cher singing this song when she felt down, she was about to lose on someone who will took away something she loves.

here is the lyric

Somehow that songs describe the situation I had back then, so I start listen and listen.

It was become strength apparently, I know besides the song there are few other things that makes me feel better, but that song and its powerful lyric also help me a lot.

Now, when I’m about to reach something I longed for a long time (Thank You ya Allah) that song become stronger than ever for me. Remind me that whenever I feel down, or someone under estimate me I just have to believe on myself and stand up, tell the world I can do better and that is not the end, instead it was a beginning to a new level that I believe I’ll reach.

SO I am confidently highly recommended this song, for you all to keep it in you playlist. And whenever something makes you feel sad or negative you can hear this song over and over again.

Trust me it works! Thank you cher!

Oh and btw check this scene on burlesque when she sing the song, and ALSO track the comments, you’ll see how people stand up once again thanks to this song :)

Warning, it is dangerous

Temptation is the kind of thing that you never wanted to have, or even care but there is this sudden urge for you to own or catch it. And then you have to start back again, feeling depressed, unwanted, useless and kind of broken heart. It is, of course unhealthy, but we have yet to be ready facing temptations every now and then.

Even though you have build your confident, set it so high, have those principles that you believe is the right way to see life, temptation most of the time makes you doubt of what you have believed. It is the way temptation works, makes you thing another way or another side is not that bad of course, it is actually much better! Then you drop again into the same hole. Digging again your abandoned self value you have dumped. And so on and so on

Yes I am tempting now, by love by the success by the prestige I saw. But it is all not real, it’ll just take me away from the reality I’ve learned to accept this whole time. I need to get back on my own track and fill it with all my hopes and dreams. And yet that temptation needs to get off my mind faster, sooner before I’m drowning on it.

This temptation thing is sucks :/